"Main" (The Frustration....Past !!! Present !!! Future)

Kabhi Kabhi ek chetna...Zindagi ke kuch aayam..
Jise hum " Ambition" "Expectation"....
Ke naam se jaante hai...
Kisi mod par aap apne ko..Thaga..Vyaakul mahsoos kerte hai...
Jab..Aapki Reality..Aapke astitwa se maat kha jaati hai...
.............. .............. Aur yahi vyaakulta...
Janm deti aapke Antar-Aatma ke aawaz...ko..
Nayi chetna kaa aabhas hota....hai...
Aisa lagta hai ki kisi ne..
Rooh ko Jhanjhod diya......ho..jaise...
......................... Meri Kavita...Un vyaakul palon...mein..
Nav-Aakar leti huyi...srijnaatmak koshish hai....

Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon...
Dum todti....dheemi aawaz hoon...
Bikhda pada hoon kone mein...
Kisi aandhi ke guzarne par....
Bekashish ghazal ka..
Besura saaz hoon.....
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon.....
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Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon
Dara sahma sa...
Bujhte lau ki...
Saanso ke hisaab jaisa...
Doobte suraj ki...
Raat ke hizaab jaisa....
Bemiyaadi..Be-murabbat namaz hoon..
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon...
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Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon....
Jo kisi ka justjoo na ho..
Wo dawa...
Jo dard ka sukoon na ho...
Wo khwaab...
Jo aarzoo na ho...
Wo...shaksh..
Jiska wazoon na ho....
Jo khud se sharminda wo laaaz hoon...
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon....
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Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon..
Dard hoon dil ka....
Chipta hua naasoor hoon..
Sur aur pyaalon mein..giraft...
Koyi...besudh magroor hoon...
Maut ki aur dhakelti..
Wo...marz ..wo suroor hoon....
Khud pe bozh..
khuda se dur.....hoon....
Jiska koyi anzaam na ho...wo aaghaz hoon..
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon......
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon......
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Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon..
Dhadakte lau ki baaat tto chodo..
Mrit...vihin raakh hoon...
Beqadr..benaam saakh hoon...
Khote sikke vi chidhaye jise...
Wo...bikhda pada laakh hoon...
Wo achoot...anchaha parwaaz hoon...
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon...
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Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon...
Kisi dil...ka dhadkan..
Ya tamanaa kisi ka...
Kisi ka berang khwab...
To kisi ki bemaani mahfil...
Kisi ka bemuraad muhabaat...
To kisi...ke nafrat kai paiymaana....
Kisi ki chot..
Kisi ke dil ka gubaar....
Ret par maut baanti miraaz hoon...
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon....
Main wo nahi jo aaj hoon....
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Kuch lamhon mein mera kal kho gaya ho jaise....
Ek zindaa dil...khud me khuda so gaya ho jaise...
Main aah tha..chaah tha....
Bheed mein..ek waah tha....
Aasmaan ko chuta tha, main apni marzi se....
Befiqra....tha prabal tha..
Main kyon nahi jo kal tha....
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Main kyon nahi jo kal tha..
Prakhar...tez mere maathe par...
Taaron ko tod rakhta tha sirahne mein...
Khud mein...akhand...achal tha....
Main kyon nahi jo kal tha...
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Main kyon nahi jo kal tha....
Adwityiya..asaadharan...
Adbhut...alaukik...
Atulniya...avismarniya...
Ashankhaya...amaulik...
Aamod...aviral tha...
Main kyon nahi jo kal tha.....
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Main kyon nahi jo kal tha........
Shiv sa surilaa saaz tha....
Khudya bandaa-ye-parwaaz tha....
Singg ke garznaa si aawaz tha...
Khuda ka noor....khudaya ka naaz tha...
Duniyaa thi mere liye...
Sab kahthe ki awaal tha....
Main kyon nahi jo kal tha....
Main kyon nahi jo kal tha....
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Aaj kal..ke chir me...
Aage nikalti is bheed mein....
Kal se nayi shuruaat ho...
Jo dost hain wo saath ho....
Jo the nahi..wo chut gaye.
Mere saath mujhko loot gaye...
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Ab ek aur khelni baari..hai
Is baar zor ki taiyaari...
Jo main jeeton..ab saath rahe....
Kyon aaj kal ki baat kahein..
Hai dher ummra muhn taktaa hua..
Mera aaj kal ko...thagta hua....
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Yeah murkh dwand sab chalna hai...
Mere suraj ko kahan ab dhalna hai...
Hai tez bhara...avizit khada....
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Jo safal hoga...wo aaj pada....
Jo safal hoga... wo aaj pada.....