"MaaN" ( The Holy Mother)

This is my sorry, my regret......in fact its a sorry from every child of this world.....to his/her beloved Mother...for whatever arrogance...they have shown.....or said....

Just go to your flash back.....your teenage period.....
....when your adrenaline pumped..more than what is required...
....when right seems wrong...and wrong seems perfect....
....when...your choices...and your opinions with your family...never matches...
....when you were "Revolutionary" for outsiders.....and even bigger one for the insiders...
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Apne Zindagi ke...Kuch Waaqyon se...Kuch Apne Bachpan ki Yadon...ko tatolkar....
main koshish ker raha hoon...ki inhe kuch shabdon me simat sakoon....
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main jaanta hoon ki....ye asambhav si chaunati...hai...kyonki....
Kavita ka Shirshak..hi mool roop se itna Vishal hai......use chand shabdon...me..peedona...
Atishyokti hi lagta....hai...

....So..i think...this creation of mine...will be updated....and..added..with lots of stuffs...
feelings....untold stories......i come across....in near future or at a later stage....


.............Let the "SORRY" begin.........


Han meri maan hi to thi wo….
Pet mein asahaay dard,
Man mein ek sajeev khushi…
Aur palon mein purrn hone ka abhimaan….
Han ye jannm hai mera…..

Ek baat to ye bhi sach hai…
Mere bhagwaan ko bhi mile doosra paaydaan…
Kyonki meri maan sarvsreshtha hai, shirsh hai….
Na unke jaisa koi aur samaan……

Ki ab nanha ho chuka hoon main…
Koyi mujh mein Ram dekhta hai..
Koyi Krishna dhoondta hai…
Par meri maan ko hi na jaane kyon…
Meri khurdare shareer par bhi…
Koyi anjaan ungliyan bhata hi nahi…..

Ki rukha sukha hi sahi…..
Maan..ke niwalon ko chodker..aur kuch main khata hi nahi…..

Ki shayad ab bada ho gaya hoon main…
Maan ki pudi kheed ko chodker,
Hazaar nahi, laakh baar hi sahi..
Apni maan ke dil ko tod ker…
Plastic mein band cheezon ko khane laga hoon…

Magar ye kaisa badlaaw hai…
Mere antar..man mein…
Maan ke mashwaron ke peeth – peeche..
Unki har baton ke khilaaf..
Dabe hothon se kuch, man mein virodh liye..
Apni maan ke tez ko chodker…
Band kamron ke andheron..mein…
Ul –zalool badbadane laga hoon……main
Apni maan ke dil ko tod ker…
Plastic mein band cheezon ko khane laga hoon…

Ki iss jhoothe ghamand ko saath liye…
Kia ab mera bhi Wazood hai…
Khud ba khud…khud ko hi…
Samjhaane laga hoon…main.
Apni maan ke dil ko tod ker…
Plastic mein band cheezon ko khane laga hoon…

Kia ab aisa lagta hai ki….
Jiske Kokh se nau-mahine tak chipka raha
Usi maan se, pyaari maan se..
Bahut door, kahin door jaane lga hoon main…
Ki shayad ab bada ho gaya hoon main…
Meri maan , mere dost v yahi kahne lage hain…

Ki shayad ab bada ho gaya hoon main….
Aur meri maan choti , unki soch choti.….
Ki ab mera sikkaa chal gaya hai…
Aur meri maan khoti….
Ki ab kuch generation gap saa aa gaya hai…
Mujh mein aur meri maan ke darmiyaan….
Meri maan wahi sthir zameen hai….
Aur main phailta aasmaan…
Ki muj hmein..saara brahmaand hai….
Aur wo ek sookshm sa nishan…

(The Regret Part)

Kayi theories maine padhe…..
Kayi jeevon se poocha..
Kayi lecture maine sune….
Kahi se na koyi jawaab na mil saka….
Par ek baat par sab paith the ki…
Aulaad thakte hain sahi… (cheat)
Badalte hain khata aur bahi….
Par kisi apne maan ne v…
Kisi sautele ko v thaka nahi…
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Aulaad thakte hain sahi… (cheat)
Badalte hain khata aur bahi….


Laakh afsaane mile, aur laakh maanfiaan mili..
Par main to apne mein is qadar choor tha….
Maan ki baton ko galat saabit, kerne mein magroor tha…
Baat band thi….Moorkh dwand thi
Sach tha main…aur maan jhoothi…
Sahi tha main aur maaan tooti…

Na jaane kaun sa nasha chaya tha is qadar….
Maan ki aanchal ke jannat ko chod ker….
Bhatakta rahta tha dar-badr
Ontho pe jhoothi musqaan thi…
Aur man me macha rahta tha..gadar…

Roti chooti…Choti chooti…
Kisi ko galat saabit kere ke liye….
Anatarkalah se pran liye…
Hain to ab bhi wo haal wahi….
Jo saalon peeche chod aaya….
Mrit Sez par leta huwan hoon….
Marnaasan hai ab ye kaaya….
Yamdoot se baat hoti hai…
Kahte hain ki main jald hi aaya….

Par aisa kyon lagta hai ki….
Jaise ki koyi saaaya mujhe kheech raha ho…..
Jin aankhon, ko aansoon maine diye…
Wo amrit ban meri saanson ko seech raha ho…

Bas ek waada mujhse ker rahi hai meri maan…
Ki itni taaqat tere shiqwon se mili hai mujhe…
Ki yamdoot ho ya ho…phir Khud chale aaye Shiv…
Koyi mujhse pahle teri saanson ko bhed nahi sakta…
Kyonki wo maan hi to hai…
Jisne rakha har bête ki neev.

yamdoot ho ya ho…phir Khud chale aaye Shiv…

"Confused" (Meri pahli "swachand" "swatantra" kavita)

Kuch roz pahle, mujhe aisa laga ki maano...mera pratibimb mujhse baatein ker raha ho....
Unhi baato ko main, kaagaz par sametne ki koshish ker raha hoon.....


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Har roz ek sapna, dekhta hoon main,
Har roz ek sapna, badalta hai..
Han ye bachpana hi to hai meri,..…ki jo pura na ho saka tto
Har wo sapna mujhe khalta hai…
Har roz mera ek sapna badalta hai….


Har shaam kshitiz par pahunch ker ..
Aisa lagta hai ki main seedhi hi bhool aaya!
Dar lagta hai ki jaise, shayad phoolon ke badlen….
Haathon me sirf shool aaya…..

Ya phir aisa lage….
Ki jo iss mod par khada hai…wo kewal parchaayi hai meri…
Khud ko tto bahut peeche hi kahin, khud ko main bhool aaya…


Aankhein badi hai itni….
Ki sansaar sama leta hoon…
Dil bada hai itna ki…
Agar jaroorat ho kisi ko meri…
Tto khud ko thama deta hoon….

Phir na jaane kyon..ek soona pan sa mahsoos hota hai…
Dabe siskaariyon aur muskuraate hothon ke tale…
Akele mein ye dil rota hai..

Na jaane kyon,ki jag jeetne ka ghamand rakha ker..
Sab kuch gawaayein baitha hoon…
Toot chukka hoon…loot chukka hoon..
Phir bhi na jaane kyon aitha hoon….


Na jaane kitni hi baatein chalti rahti hai…mere ulzhe huye sir mein..
Sach kahoon to aisa lagta hai…..mil gaye jawaab…saare..
Is pudiye wali zehar mein..


Par likhne wale ye to bhool hi gaye..main robot nahi aadmi hoon…
Ki bikhar jaaon ye manzoor hai sahi..
Lekin ladna to meri fitrat mein hai…
Abhi to ek chauthahi hi beeti hai…waqt abhi mere muthhi mein hai,..
Badloonga main bhi, ye waqt bhi, mere bare me sochne wale bhi..


Apni jeet par bhi main…khud ki kalam chalaoonga…
Aaj meri haar ki sun lo..kal laut ke phir aaonga…

Kal laut ke phir main aaonga

My First Ghazal.....

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(Sing...Zing....n Feel.....)

Har roz chale aate ho,afsaanon mein hamaare.....
Dhoondoon tumhe main kaise, Veeranon mein hammare..

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Har roz chale aate ho,afsaanon mein hamaare.....


Kahte ho ki chaha nahi, chahat se kabhi tumko......
Khud naam liya phirte ho, anzaanon mein hamaare...

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Har roz chale aate ho,afsaanon mein hamaare.....

Sab kuch lutaya tum pe, har pal tumhi ko pooja...
Ab naam de do apna, deewano mein hamaare.....

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Har roz chale aate ho,afsaanon mein hamaare.....
Dhoondoon tumhe main kaise, Veeranon mein hammare..

Shaayraana Philosophy......

1.
Zindagi hai......
.........Yehan - Raahein aansaan kahan,
....Manzilon ka thos, nishan kahan.....
Ko gar....
Mujhsa musaafir nahi ....
To ye zehan kahan, wo Khuda kahan....

2.
Hai meri barbaadiyon ka sabab yehi....
Ki joothe waadon pe, aashiyan banata chala gaya......

Ki had mod par laga tha , dilzalon ka mazma.....
Jis mod se guzra, mahkhana banata chala gaya......

Hai meri barbaadiyon ka sabab yehi....
Ki joothe waadon pe, aashiyan banata chala gaya......

3.
Dard-aye, Mohabbat bayan kerna.....
.....Aasaan nahi hai..."Prem".......
......Kal aag ki dariya thi....
Aaz samunder, ban gaya hai yaaron......

My Feelings.....My friends

Arrz hai:

Teri aankhon ke noor se, roshan ho ye jehan...
Tere iraadon ko jo tatol sake,Is kaaynaat me wo dard, wo peed kahan....

Ki isliye shayad, kayaamat, aati nahi is duniya mein.....
......Ko gar,Jo mit gaya tera hi wazood to....
mere liye ye jehan kahan, dil me khuda kahan....


Teri aankhon ke noor se, roshan ho ye jehan...
Tere iraadon ko jo tatol sake,Is kaaynaat me wo dard, wo peed kahan....

Words for Feelings:

....The zest and feelings for the posted "Kalaam" credited to my co-league "HEMANT"
...........I have just put on the skin to his beautiful thinking

Arrz hai:

...Teri tanhaaiyon se phiki hai, meri shaamein is qadar...
.........Saagron jaam mein dooba hoon, Kadam ladkharate hi nahi.....

My Raw feelings:

(1)......Kisi Ki yaad me doob jaana,
maiy ki tauheen hai.......
......Mere dost too aashiq nahi...
shauqin hai, shauqin hai...

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(2)......Yun,chaunk mat is duniya mein,
Ki Humne sab ko badalte dekha hai....
......Socha tha, maiy se taubaa ker loon, tere waadon pe..
Aaj khud Khuda ko, bahkte dekha hai...

Ki Humne sab ko badalte dekha hai....

Sharaab....aur..Shawaab

......(mere maiy-pasand doston ke liye)
Arrz hai.......

Kyon laga hai intezaame-marrz,
Dil tootne ka.........
Kuch aur dil laga le....
...........Ki teri abhi auqaat baanki hai......

.....In continuation:


...Kyon tujhe ho gham, dil tootne ka....
Ki teri abhi auqaat baanki hai....
..Ko-gar too agar peena chahe to...
To Khuda tera saaki hai...


Kuch aur dil laga le....
...........Ki teri abhi auqaat baanki hai......

After a long wait.....

Kabhi Kabhi Zindagi mein wo mod bhi aata hai...jab dard hi marham ban jaaye.....
....us pal mein....toote dilon mein ye khayaal jaroor aata hai ki...
ab zindagi sawar jaaye bhi to kya?
..jo Dard had hai...wo guzar jaaye bhi to kya?

....aise hi anchooye palon ko...kuredti huyi nazm arrz hai......


Sochta hoon.....
Ab us wafa se baat ho, to kya ho......
Ki...
Jiske deedar se chupte rahe taa-ummr
...ab us se mulaaqat ho to kya ho...

Sochta hoon.....
Ab us wafa se baat ho, to kya ho......
Ki...
Dhoop banker jo chuvti rahi ujaalon mein
....uske ghane gesuon ke saaye mein,ek raat ho to kya ho

Sochta hoon.....
Ab us wafa se baat ho, to kya ho......
Ki...
Meri pyaas, jise mrigtrishnaa, ka saath raha hamensha
....Aaj doob bhi jaaoon , pyar ke barsaat mein to kya ho

Sochta hoon.....
Ab us wafa se baat ho, to kya ho......
Ki...
Han zinadagi aansaan hoti, phoolon ke sez par jawaan hoti..
Han zinadagi aansaan hoti, phoolon ke sez par jawaan hoti..
....Lekin ek shaayar ko dard ka saath na ho, to kya ho..

Sochta hoon.....
Ab us wafa se baat ho, to kya ho......

Shiqwaa....Shiqaayat...

Arrz hai


Unhe ye galatfahmi.......
..........ki hum unhe yaad nahi kerte.....
...ye aur baat hai ki....
Humne har pal jashn manaya , unhe bhoolne ka......

In t mean time.....

Arrz hai...
Date Of Creation: 07 March 2010
Time: 04:30 am (morning)

Arrz hai...

Zara shisha to utha, do jaam bana le - aye saaki.....
Dil pe kayi bozh hai, aur bozhil shaam hai baanki.....
.............Too bhi apni baat ker, dard ched...zara taul ker to dekhoon...
............Ki mit gayi hai mohabbat is duniya se...ya koyi heer abhi bhi hai baanki...
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Mere Qaid JaZbaat....

Arrz hai...

Wo yun nazm likhta raha..mere kabbr ki aagosh mein......
....................uske aansoouye-syaah se....meri pyas bhujhti rahi.......

To b continued...
Hope i can add few lines to it...

The Latest Creation

Arrz hai...

...............Thamta nahi hai manzar.....teri yaadon ka sapnon mein.....
..........Phir naam kyon mit jaata hai tera...jab likhta hoon apnon mein....
....Ki ab bahut door chale aaye, mausmon ka rang bhi pad gaya hai phika...
....Han shayad wo ab mauz beet gaya hai..jab dharakta tha too dil ban ker, dharkanon mein.

..............Thamta nahi hai manzar.....teri yaadon ka sapnon mein.....
..........Phir naam kyon mit jaata hai tera...jab likhta hoon apnon mein....

The First Kalaam...

Arrz Hai....

........De dard aye, wafa beintehaan itna
Ki Dard me hi sukoon mile.......
...Ko gar...Mujhe nahi to mere Raakh ko hai Sahi.....
........Teri muhabaat naseeb ho.....
........Wo jazbaat...wo junoon mile.......

........De dard aye, beintehaan wafa itna
Ki Dard me hi sukoon mile.......

The First Words

There have been always a crave inside me to..write..explode my unshared world...so my creativity don't dies unheard.
............This blog of mine will unearth all my belongings in forms of poems , shayris, views and many other forms of untold sagas...
...............................I will heavenly appreciate and acknowledge those.....who will stamp their wise and creative impression on my blogs..and add value to it.


........................Wish me luck..